Without Our Team

I feel alone and cold,
there is no one here to share this burdensome load,
there is not one here now to bring the rain,
to shelter me from the sun's deadly rays.

Without anyone to hold,
my life feels cold,
the one feeling that drove him away,
is one that is all-around not okay.

The team has parted,
no longer to win,
we worked well together,
we really did.

Without you I am scared,
to face the world alone,
afraid that someone on their throne,
will throw me down-and do so much wrong.





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A Devil Like You

A cold and dark heart,
disgusting being,
what you did was not smart,
this is what you will be reliving.

You take an arrow,
and pierce it through,
this has never happened to me before,
running into a devil like you.

Problems of a mortal child,
she disguises so you cannot see,
her feelings locked behind a closed door,
you do not want to start this war.

I will be clever,
to die is not encoded in me,
you will not give me a chance,
my dreams in this will enhance.





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Giving Up On You

The wish of a mortal,
to see the light,
she sits down,
there will be no fight.

Conversion of ready-made corpses,
is like bringing back the dead,
it is a vision like none other,
to see the boiling of blood red.

To see the brown eyes,
I must look very close,
but what I see now,
I have not chose.

To believe that your specific individuality,
is only normal,
would be turning my back on God,
and opening myself to the world.





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Love

A twilight's sparkle,
in your eyes,
this lives,
to only die.

In 1 Corinthians,
we speak about love,
and without love,
we are nothing.

Keep love in your heart,
it will always warm you,
without love,
my God will warn you.

The world is in trouble,
you can see that clearly,
you do not even have to open your eyes,
to see what trouble in what this world lies.





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Freedom From Hell

The spirit of horses,
with the cappuccino color,
manes of the cat's eye black,
running as free as birds who sing.

A child stands by,
and watches this freedom,
she looks over her shoulder,
and notices a butterfly passing by.

Those who know this freedom,
will never give it up,
there's too much hate,
to give up that freedom-to give it away.

A newborn puppy,
with its eyes closed,
until they open,
he will not be exposed.





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I Am Tired

I am tired of being told what to do,
I am tired of being nice too,
I am tired of being run over by you,
I am tired of being part of you.

I am tired of all I see,
I am tired of you and me,
it is just somehow this cannot be,
is this my eternity?

I am tired of loneliness and fear,
I will never shed that tear,
I will never live in fear,
I will persevere.

As the day comes to a close,
it is just only me that seems to know,
here I am as I go down,
I did not die with a frown.





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What I Done Without Them

I never thought,
I would see the day,
when the very ones closest to me,
would vanish and go away.

Her lovely grayish-white hair,
her pain and despair,
described my grandmother,
spectacular and fair.

His lovely black coat,
with the red in his beard,
my one and only,
my puppy that I have lost.

His deep teddy bear eyes,
and a touch so soft-sends chills down your spine,
but he would make sure I was warm,
here is to you my dear friend.

Now that I do not have any love,
I feel as if I have been torn,
I await a miracle in my life,
it took all of this to turn my attention to the Lord.





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My Eyes To Paradise

As rain falls angrily on our tin roof,
we sit in front of the fire,
you draw me near,
you ask me about the diamonds in my eyes.

I reply that you should look closer,
look and read what is behind,
my eyes are just a reflection of what is inside,
and you took my advice.

Oh you dense black hole,
you are confused so easily,
gaze into my eyes,
and kiss me-we are one.

As you see,
I am ready to be held,
I miss the way you look at me,
and I miss the way you can tell.





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Horror Understand

Traumatized,
by the horrors of life,
wake up and see the light my dear,
wake up and see the light.

Malice is cold,
and life gets old,
you are still crying out,
for someone to hold.

Lonely in your rare world,
insecurities of woven bone,
I am here and I will never,
I will never leave you alone.

Darkness behind a closed and locked door,
you are afraid this world will not understand,
understand the feelings you burden to hold,
all you know is that I understand.





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The Power Of A Dream's Love

A dreamweaver takes the blame,
for making her dreams come true again,
she has no idea why,
how her dreams could make one cry.

A lover saved from the flames,
he saw the sun,
and now she brings the rain,
could he live with his life again?

I told him that she will not,
give him the moonlight,
only to burn him with the sun,
because he only has won.

They take away,
in their dreams and hearts
the very essence of understanding,
the power of love.





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An Injured Soul

My clear diamond,
has been shredded by steel,
his beautiful face,
that God will heal.

Paralyzed is a scare tactic word,
one that this soul should not deserve,
pray to God and you will learn,
about going slow to save your world.

The three days before,
that was your warning sign,
you should have listened,
I guess you will be ready the next time.

You lay there alone,
your bed is cold,
the environment around you is so dreary,
I want to be the first you hold.





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The Secret Touch

The longing for,
a certain touch,
it is just for love,
and not for lust.

Two minds,
work as one,
both longing for,
that certain love.

Understanding spirit,
gets hurt everyday,
by those who fear,
secrets will be slipped away.

I thought I knew myself,
for he I could never love,
comes near death,
and he becomes my freedom dove.





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Sunset Meadows

A diamond staircase,
leading to one's heavenly home,
reflects the beauty,
of the sunset.

Meadows of wildflowers,
enhancing the touch,
purple with gold,
leaves a story untold.

The sunset filled,
with golden clouds of light,
a little blue to fill your day,
this sunset would sweep you away.

The meaning of a touch,
one to hold very close,
the meaning of love,
this story will never be told.





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Listen For Knowledge

This valley of devils,
mountains of God,
the devils will scatter,
at the powerful hands of God.

As devils attack friends,
and will not let go,
I can only watch them fall off the cliff,
to hell is where they have chosen to go.

I try to help them,
guide them in the way to go,
they do not ever want to listen,
so they will never know.

Ignorant people-my friends-never listen,
they do not know,
and they do not want to see change,
one day the verdict you will see-Judgment Day.





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The Matchmaker

The matchmaker has done it again,
eight couples in love,
it just seems so interesting,
to watch this game of love.

The matchmaker has been in business,
for at least three years,
this year is her year,
to do it again.

Her only relationship,
that lasted a long time,
was her very own,
but her match went by the wayside.

Now her match is at bay,
and that is perfectly okay,
she is the only one that has not told,
her story that is so old.





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Lost Friends

My closest friends,
are physically or mentally dead,
at the drop of a pen,
and the lift of a head.

Now I have no one,
I feel cryptic and cold,
to associate with anyone,
is strictly untold.

The only one,
I consider a friend,
is my Lord and God,
my Jesus Christ.

I am surrounded by dancing devils,
they take my family,
they take my friends,
but I still know that I will win!





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Between Three Worlds

You are stuck between three worlds,
what are you to do,
you think about this all the time,
do you think that this is a sign-I do.

Prayers in Jesus name,
ask and you shall receive,
my prayer might be sending you a sign,
let us just wait and see.

You ask me what to do,
between your three worlds,
I said you know my answer,
and it definitely is not the first.

I told you to focus on school,
leave time for yourself as well,
in time you will see God's plan,
I must seek that plan too.





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Perfect Personality

Look at you,
walking toward me with that smile on your face,
I want you to hold me,
in your strong embrace.

Looking sexy in those clothes you wear,
taking only one minute,
to style your hair,
it is not even that-I am well aware.

Your slim body,
with the strong embrace,
my day holds and I wait just to see your face,
but that still is not it.

I will tell you why I love you so much,
one thing is your personal touch,
another thing is all the love,
but it is your personality that I love.





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Suspense And Friends

You really know,
how to enter my head,
you keep on doing this,
I am going to be dead.

I am in suspense,
now for the second time,
you have to tell me,
before I run out of time.

You know that I am here for you,
and that I will always be,
if you remember the day,
we were in that tree.

Open minds,
the light of day,
always remember,
that I am here to stay.





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My Dream Relived (Part II)

After our first meeting,
we must have eventually married,
because we were on the road,
together-to a family event.

As in our first meeting,
we realized that there was a sunset,
we expressed our love for it again,
and love can explain the rest.

To prepare for what life would bring,
we stopped to make more space,
I solved the problems-we celebrated,
we were off in our own way.

That is all I can remember,
of this dream filled with what I have longed for,
of a handsome man with dark brown hair,
of whom I did not get to see his face.

If this man in my dream,
matches your uniqueness,
do all you can,
to share yourself in my life.





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My Dream Relived (Part I)

You came to me in a dream,
it seemed like the perfect thing,
it must have been Heaven sent,
total strangers to lovers we went.

I asked you to come with me to a birthday,
you said that you'd have to see,
we exclaimed our love for the sunset,
then you kissed me.

After that moment passed,
you said it could never be,
you started to run,
but I caught you by the sleeve.

I asked you why you ran,
you asked me why I didn't want you to go,
I paused trying to choose my words,
all I could do was tell you "I love you!"

At that moment you hugged me,
you said you loved me too,
we gazed into each others eyes,
yet I still do not know who.





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Confused

Is this love,
or am I confused,
I do not know if you like me,
or if I just like you.

Leaning in to the ones you love,
with the eyes of a dove,
somehow I must be confused,
or is it that I am just used?

The perfect smile,
the perfect embrace,
all of this behind,
just a simple gate.

Let your feelings show,
do not hide them under deep snow,
is this just that I do not know,
or am I just confused?





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Above The Horizon

I have been discovered,
everything out from under their cover,
rise up and stand,
I have risen above the horizon.

I will hold you up,
I will help you stand,
you will not fall,
when you are above the horizon.

This day is frosted,
with cotton ball clouds of love,
as you see the mourning dove,
above the horizon.

The truths of trusts,
cotton ball clouds,
if you see these now,
you are above the horizon.





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Problems Of Life

Life held back,
behind a closed door,
the spies of the world,
should not bother anymore.

Angry eyes,
with an angry past,
marches up to the judge's face,
and claims her rights without haste.

Longing in fear,
for a dying race,
we long to see,
her same everyday face.

The only one,
with silent rain she comes,
the only one,
as the storms of life begin to part.





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Feelings Of Being Sick

As a strong soul,
defends the weak,
I could have died,
or sick forever.

You saved my life,
from a dreadful pain,
for that I thank you,
over and over again.

At an instant,
I saw a light,
a light that I have longed for,
on those cold and dreadful nights.

For a moment,
we connected minds,
worked as one,
not shredded by the lions.





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Death As Beaten

A beaten child with a long past,
falls down without a gasp,
the bruises form a bitter cast,
this child will never last.

Behind strong eyes and a confident walk,
this child is not all talk,
thrown down and upon walked,
never a second chance-never one thought.

Opinionated fools walk upon,
upon the tears of just one,
light of day will never pay,
pay for the scars left on her face.

The eyes did claim,
the truths of trusts,
there it drums me,
I have been found dead.





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This Is Your Life

The world feels empty,
the world feels cold,
without me,
to lighten the load.

I feel low,
taken advantage of,
old and worn,
tossed and torn.

I need to laugh,
and talk too,
my personality us unique,
but my style is used.

Thoughts and actions is my ancient form,
evenings are clear and warm,
I do not mind the occasional storm,
let the rain come.





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Broken Relationship

I understand you more than you will ever know,
you are afraid to let the real you show,
you are afraid of what I know,
you are afraid of being exposed.

Yes I do wish you were different,
because I thought our relationship was great,
I understand what you see behind that gate,
and I know October will never see that date.

I marked my calendar the day we met,
and when we ended too,
all I want to know is why,
or even who.

I know it is difficult to answer that,
no matter how hard you could try,
I see the fear in you,
I can see it in your eyes.





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Pieces Of Heart

The rudest person on Earth,
no one cares anymore,
how they hurt the feelings of a mortal,
how they kill that soul inside.

Sit back and laugh as a tear sheds,
you do not know that slow-killing death,
the body shuts down,
it is loved no more.

If you take an inner peek,
you will find that her mind seeks,
a way out,
a way of escape.

The sun will rise for a new day,
where her worries will go away,
the pain you inflicted on her,
will turn and be on you evermore.





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You Must Stand

A heart shattered,
a mind worn,
so many worries,
as we go to war.

War with our hearts,
sunsets with blood red,
enemies tagged with death,
war delivers their last breath.

Day has fallen,
the night with fear,
one light passes,
we will persevere.

We will be victorious,
stay with church and tell,
the world about God,
before they go to hell.





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Dying And Dried Soil

The rising sun,
the night went past,
dust from the storms,
fire turns to ash.

The winter cold,
the summer bold,
the streets of gold,
the life of the word-not old.

Tears silence on a tired face,
people of a dying race,
one's life is at fast pace,
the peace of a meadow one awaits.

Rainbows of love,
blessings from rain,
the human body,
from soil we came.





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Love's Flood Gates

My hopes are high,
my spirit lights,
I light up the world,
I am out of the night.

Change is great,
past that when God is in it,
God is good all the time,
He saves and makes us good.

My flood of love awaits,
behind these special flood gates,
I am ready to receive my work,
my Lord-I await your word.

Secrets behind a hidden door,
can vanish and be seen no more,
the door will be opened,
the secrets replaced with faith.





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Hidden Embrace

The night grows colder,
as we get older,
just give it up,
and let it go.

This blizzard of problems,
the snow real deep,
it weighs down your shoulders,
it is so hard to see.

I am still your friend,
probably one of the best you have,
I understand your problems,
and offer a helping hand.

Even if your insecurities could eat you alive,
you only have one life,
looks towards God,
and let His light lead your way.





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Cut Off

No one cuts off my life,
without my consent,
you tear me from my world,
now I am wretched and bent.

You think I am your puppet,
you do not even care-not worth a dime,
in your eyes I am worth nothing,
just the day of my dying.

I will pay for the things I do,
do not dare force them upon me,
my stress is high,
sometimes I wish I could die.

Of course-that would be great,
the day of my dying,
you would not have to worry about being straight,
just pass into that unknown gate of what others hate.





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Without You

If I need a hug,
no one is ever there,
what am I to do,
kill myself in hopes to get rid of you?

Your insecurities have swallowed you whole,
I just thought you needed to know,
you may think I am not pure,
your thoughts are false-I am just trying to survive this overload.

Paper and pen are my friends,
they agree with me,
and things go my way,
it pays to have them by your side.

You may have done my a favor,
you know-tearing my heart in two,
I pick up the pieces,
no one will use them for stew.

I will not cut anyone that needs my help,
I will not do them the way you have done,
I will not leave them in an unknown world,
knowing they would die.

Now for my final woe,
just to let you know,
my heart has nearly finished mending together,
I think I am a lot better-without you.






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Independent

When times get tough,
and roads get rough,
I know enough,
to get me through.

Do not depend on anyone,
to relieve your strain,
all they care about,
is what they gain.

I would give up,
if it did not affect me as well,
I am all alone in this world,
I have nothing to do.

Everyone hates me,
they do not even try,
no one really knows me,
so I am looking for the sky.





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Closed Doors

The love of my life,
the knight of my dreams,
the diary safe,
beneath the folded things.

My shining sun,
my shelter in rain,
if I die alone,
it will not be in vain.

The storms have passed,
new day has come,
you let down an easy rain,
I have so much to gain.

If you will look inside,
past the things I hide,
you will find a scared girl,
that has love by her side.





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The Gate Of Love

I see your eyes-and I see your smile,
and I wonder if your smile points to me,
your body tells me you have the same feelings as I,
your voice tells me that you are shy.

I want you to see the inside,
I want you to know my life,
I want you to see how I feel,
I want you to not say goodbye.

Your very presence jump starts my day,
I see my ex and he starts to fade away,
I am trying to shut off my love for him-convert my heart once again,
he has no clue what he has missed-missed the very emotional essence of life.

I want you to be straight,
I want you to not hate,
I want you to enter the gate,
the gate of my endless love.





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I Have To Say No

The days were bright and cold,
I shuddered in your hold,
my thoughts are getting old,
I am going to be bold.

I cannot love you,
even though I would try,
I would never forgive myself,
I would make you cry.

I cannot stand myself,
you know the way I am,
the chemistry here is deadly wrong,
I cannot sing this song.

As my days pass,
I get more set in my ways,
the evening cold-it is going to blow,
blow you away.

My heart says-come on now,
you know what you want,
you do not want him-why even bother,
why lose sleep tonight?





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Why I Died

The lion's roar and the thunder crashes
as he looks at me-I turn to ashes,
why he killed me with his eyes,
why he wanted me to die?!

I live no more,
my faith runs low,
my eyes are red,
my thoughts are dead.

And this I read to myself asleep,
asleep in his dream filled with death,
and horror-I ask,
no more to see this light-that killed me that night.





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Suicide

Another day-another time,
as a friend looks at you with a tear in her eye,
you know by the look-she tried it again,
her wrists are slit and smile stained.

What is that spot on your shirt you say,
as your friend looks and turns away,
you pull her back and it hits you,
it hits you again with a powerful blow.

You know that she feels as if she must go,
her troubled past as her virginity went past-to someone she barely knew,
she said she loved him-he said so,
she asked if he loved her-he said no.

All this blood spilled-night after night,
she knows when she will do it just right,
never again will you see her face-she's a member of this growing race,
these special killers-killers at heart.





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Your Sexuality

Whatever you do,
wherever you go,
you know that it tries to change you in a way,
you'll never know.

How to live and how to die,
bothers a soul-you can see it in her eyes,
these individuals look over you life you are their gold,
and you a child-as if no one knows these mental changes.

Many hearts are broken-as was mine,
the tears run down like they are out of time,
affect you in any way-show the emotions,
to turn someone away.

These days are getting colder,
we approach another ice age,
when hell freezes over-and you see a way,
lifestyles lived by some-there's one for all and all for one.





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Your Ticket In Life

The moon is so bright on a clear night,
that I can see the outline of the mountains surrounding my home,
if you listen carefully you can hear the coyote's crying,
the souls gone on help us go safely through our day,
your dreams signal that danger is on its way,
you wake up and begin to pray,
that the danger would completely go away,
so you wouldn't have to face it throughout your busy days,
which eventually become your grave,
the stress-the pressure-even the thought of being in existance,
scares you to the evening of your day.

You eat-you laugh-you talk-you sleep,
where the cycle repeats itself until God eventually says,
"Time is up" and you turn in your life to be graded,
those who make straight "A's" get in Heaven quite easily,
"B's" go through on their knees,
"C's" hang on by their teeth,
"D's" must beg and plead,
"F's" are failures that go down living an eternity,
of what they put other through,
and they must watch every bad thing they had done,
and never to stop.

The point is to give it your all through life,
because this is the only time you can take this test,
get some rest-you have a long way to go.





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