Hidden Embrace

The night grows colder,
as we get older,
just give it up,
and let it go.

This blizzard of problems,
the snow real deep,
it weighs down your shoulders,
it is so hard to see.

I am still your friend,
probably one of the best you have,
I understand your problems,
and offer a helping hand.

Even if your insecurities could eat you alive,
you only have one life,
looks towards God,
and let His light lead your way.





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Cut Off

No one cuts off my life,
without my consent,
you tear me from my world,
now I am wretched and bent.

You think I am your puppet,
you do not even care-not worth a dime,
in your eyes I am worth nothing,
just the day of my dying.

I will pay for the things I do,
do not dare force them upon me,
my stress is high,
sometimes I wish I could die.

Of course-that would be great,
the day of my dying,
you would not have to worry about being straight,
just pass into that unknown gate of what others hate.





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Without You

If I need a hug,
no one is ever there,
what am I to do,
kill myself in hopes to get rid of you?

Your insecurities have swallowed you whole,
I just thought you needed to know,
you may think I am not pure,
your thoughts are false-I am just trying to survive this overload.

Paper and pen are my friends,
they agree with me,
and things go my way,
it pays to have them by your side.

You may have done my a favor,
you know-tearing my heart in two,
I pick up the pieces,
no one will use them for stew.

I will not cut anyone that needs my help,
I will not do them the way you have done,
I will not leave them in an unknown world,
knowing they would die.

Now for my final woe,
just to let you know,
my heart has nearly finished mending together,
I think I am a lot better-without you.






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Independent

When times get tough,
and roads get rough,
I know enough,
to get me through.

Do not depend on anyone,
to relieve your strain,
all they care about,
is what they gain.

I would give up,
if it did not affect me as well,
I am all alone in this world,
I have nothing to do.

Everyone hates me,
they do not even try,
no one really knows me,
so I am looking for the sky.





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Closed Doors

The love of my life,
the knight of my dreams,
the diary safe,
beneath the folded things.

My shining sun,
my shelter in rain,
if I die alone,
it will not be in vain.

The storms have passed,
new day has come,
you let down an easy rain,
I have so much to gain.

If you will look inside,
past the things I hide,
you will find a scared girl,
that has love by her side.





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The Gate Of Love

I see your eyes-and I see your smile,
and I wonder if your smile points to me,
your body tells me you have the same feelings as I,
your voice tells me that you are shy.

I want you to see the inside,
I want you to know my life,
I want you to see how I feel,
I want you to not say goodbye.

Your very presence jump starts my day,
I see my ex and he starts to fade away,
I am trying to shut off my love for him-convert my heart once again,
he has no clue what he has missed-missed the very emotional essence of life.

I want you to be straight,
I want you to not hate,
I want you to enter the gate,
the gate of my endless love.





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I Have To Say No

The days were bright and cold,
I shuddered in your hold,
my thoughts are getting old,
I am going to be bold.

I cannot love you,
even though I would try,
I would never forgive myself,
I would make you cry.

I cannot stand myself,
you know the way I am,
the chemistry here is deadly wrong,
I cannot sing this song.

As my days pass,
I get more set in my ways,
the evening cold-it is going to blow,
blow you away.

My heart says-come on now,
you know what you want,
you do not want him-why even bother,
why lose sleep tonight?





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Why I Died

The lion's roar and the thunder crashes
as he looks at me-I turn to ashes,
why he killed me with his eyes,
why he wanted me to die?!

I live no more,
my faith runs low,
my eyes are red,
my thoughts are dead.

And this I read to myself asleep,
asleep in his dream filled with death,
and horror-I ask,
no more to see this light-that killed me that night.





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Suicide

Another day-another time,
as a friend looks at you with a tear in her eye,
you know by the look-she tried it again,
her wrists are slit and smile stained.

What is that spot on your shirt you say,
as your friend looks and turns away,
you pull her back and it hits you,
it hits you again with a powerful blow.

You know that she feels as if she must go,
her troubled past as her virginity went past-to someone she barely knew,
she said she loved him-he said so,
she asked if he loved her-he said no.

All this blood spilled-night after night,
she knows when she will do it just right,
never again will you see her face-she's a member of this growing race,
these special killers-killers at heart.





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Your Sexuality

Whatever you do,
wherever you go,
you know that it tries to change you in a way,
you'll never know.

How to live and how to die,
bothers a soul-you can see it in her eyes,
these individuals look over you life you are their gold,
and you a child-as if no one knows these mental changes.

Many hearts are broken-as was mine,
the tears run down like they are out of time,
affect you in any way-show the emotions,
to turn someone away.

These days are getting colder,
we approach another ice age,
when hell freezes over-and you see a way,
lifestyles lived by some-there's one for all and all for one.





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